:-(

I feel like an idiot.

I really do.

I really thought I contributed enough, I really thought I tried to include him... It's never enough.

And it always happens after a beautiful day together. 

I'm wicked upset right now.... It doesn't help that my degu, I thought she was dead. She escaped from her cage and I was so stressed about finding a little corpse... I'm so happy Garrette and my dad helped me find her.

I just don't know what to do anymore :-(